wow, its been a long time since I posted in here, really long.  Nothing really new to note except my gf from my last post put us on hold on 12 Nov, only talked to her once since that day   but the good thing is, I have really good friend support, they've been my rock, thank you all of you.  Basically I've decided not to put my entire life on hold, if she comes back, then great, but my whole life cant wait for that moment which may or may not come.  It's tough, but thats life.  She'll always have a special place in my heart.  And so will my friends, especially my closest friends.

I've got some news in the making, just need to check with someone else first as it involves them.

some quotes that mean alot to me right now

live every day like it will be your last, love every love like there will be noone else

reality is the here and now, not the then

I just got something in the mail today and I've been smiling ever since.  My girlfriend sent me a drawing of two horses, they are supposed to be us.  She even included a description

show down:
you never know what she'll do next, one minute she can be calm and nice, the next she could be hyper beyond reason

timmed love:
a strong handsome stallion, but shy when it came to love at first but once he gets going he shows more love than ever thought possible

I couldnt talk to my gf darn CAP, but if it werent for CAP I wouldn't be with her.  I came home today to find my roommate left, yay!  The guy who offered to be next years roommate offered to move in this week, so im gonna consider it.